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I am seriously fucking mad with myself.
Fine. since i have no one to talk to i'll talk to this blog. This blog is non-judgemental and has no guilty conscience and will not think i am pointing fingers at it.
I can't believe i spent more than $1.2K on the fucking bloody shop. Fucking one thousand two hundred dollars on the fucking piece of crap. Fuck knows how long i take to raise $1.2K. during my hectic school-going period, it prolly took me at most 2.5 months. but it is not the fucking time (okay prolly abit) but the fucking effort i put into it!!! I worked so fucking hard to perfect every angle, every picture, every fucking light exposure and every word. So hard!!!! And i just splurged it on one fucking bloody shop. To be exact, for two advertisement spot on a bloody magazine.
What the heck. Well. Do you know how fuckingly lovingly i pulled out my desk drawer and put more than $1000 aside from my piggy bank?!!??! Coz back then, i loved the shop. I didn't even stop to think how i earned every single dollar of that thousand. I just put it aside and was fucking excited to do something for a shop i worked to hard for. Now its a shop i fucking hate with every bit drop of my blood, with every inch of my bone. Right to the core it bloody anger and i feel nothing but fuck about it. Well on a hindsight, it did show me SOMEBODY'S true fucking bull colors.
Wth $1200 gone down just the drain in just a snap. Hold it. It's not just the bloody moolah.
The photoshoot
The cab ride alone to bloody Arab Street where it's filled with drugs and people smoking weird things from a glass thingy
- oh yes. and i got fucking lost too.
The whole editing process which i spent at least 6 hours on.
Now i've washed my hands off the bloody shop but i my $1200 is flown away EVEN BEFORE THE FUCKING ADVERTISEMENT IS OUT ON NEWSSTANDS. what the fuck i am the world's biggest ever fucking fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God. with the $1200 i could have done so much more
- treat myself to something after O levels ---> this is absolutely neccessary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- buy my dad an Osim tapper thing whatever you call that
- buy me a proper prom dress + shoes
- buy my friends an expensive "yay its over!" gift each
- save up for my first ever Chanel 2.55 bag
- new dresses for myself. (my last real shopping spree was during Chinese New Year.)
- treat my family for a buffet.
- buy a PS3 for chris
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MYSELF?!?!?!
I mean yeah, i do still have sufficient cash to ensure i don't starve during the next 5 months as my parents are not going to give me any pocket money but this amount of cash (and what i will be continuing to earn) will not allow me to pamper myself or the people i love! :(
So what if it's too late for regrets
All of you say this but when things happen to you, you honestly can't do anything else but fucking regret!!!!!!
All those pretty dresses, all those shoes, bags and lovely food. I can't get them no more! :(
Prom's my biggest regret actually. my dress is okay but i couldn't bear to spend more to do up my hair and make up (like audrey, for $48!!!) and MY NAILS OMG YES THAT'S A HUGE REGRET. AND SHOEEEEEES. help me help me help me
AND EVEN MY DAD COULDN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING THIS TRIP I MADE TO MALAYSIA
well the only thing i spent on is RM1 to a poor beggar with no arms no legs :))) shit i should have given him like RM10 or something. i'm a bad person :((((
got this post is such a rant post.
what the hell.
bye.
Fine. since i have no one to talk to i'll talk to this blog. This blog is non-judgemental and has no guilty conscience and will not think i am pointing fingers at it.
I can't believe i spent more than $1.2K on the fucking bloody shop. Fucking one thousand two hundred dollars on the fucking piece of crap. Fuck knows how long i take to raise $1.2K. during my hectic school-going period, it prolly took me at most 2.5 months. but it is not the fucking time (okay prolly abit) but the fucking effort i put into it!!! I worked so fucking hard to perfect every angle, every picture, every fucking light exposure and every word. So hard!!!! And i just splurged it on one fucking bloody shop. To be exact, for two advertisement spot on a bloody magazine.
What the heck. Well. Do you know how fuckingly lovingly i pulled out my desk drawer and put more than $1000 aside from my piggy bank?!!??! Coz back then, i loved the shop. I didn't even stop to think how i earned every single dollar of that thousand. I just put it aside and was fucking excited to do something for a shop i worked to hard for. Now its a shop i fucking hate with every bit drop of my blood, with every inch of my bone. Right to the core it bloody anger and i feel nothing but fuck about it. Well on a hindsight, it did show me SOMEBODY'S true fucking bull colors.
Wth $1200 gone down just the drain in just a snap. Hold it. It's not just the bloody moolah.
The photoshoot
The cab ride alone to bloody Arab Street where it's filled with drugs and people smoking weird things from a glass thingy
- oh yes. and i got fucking lost too.
The whole editing process which i spent at least 6 hours on.
Now i've washed my hands off the bloody shop but i my $1200 is flown away EVEN BEFORE THE FUCKING ADVERTISEMENT IS OUT ON NEWSSTANDS. what the fuck i am the world's biggest ever fucking fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God. with the $1200 i could have done so much more
- treat myself to something after O levels ---> this is absolutely neccessary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- buy my dad an Osim tapper thing whatever you call that
- buy me a proper prom dress + shoes
- buy my friends an expensive "yay its over!" gift each
- save up for my first ever Chanel 2.55 bag
- new dresses for myself. (my last real shopping spree was during Chinese New Year.)
- treat my family for a buffet.
- buy a PS3 for chris
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MYSELF?!?!?!
I mean yeah, i do still have sufficient cash to ensure i don't starve during the next 5 months as my parents are not going to give me any pocket money but this amount of cash (and what i will be continuing to earn) will not allow me to pamper myself or the people i love! :(
So what if it's too late for regrets
All of you say this but when things happen to you, you honestly can't do anything else but fucking regret!!!!!!
All those pretty dresses, all those shoes, bags and lovely food. I can't get them no more! :(
Prom's my biggest regret actually. my dress is okay but i couldn't bear to spend more to do up my hair and make up (like audrey, for $48!!!) and MY NAILS OMG YES THAT'S A HUGE REGRET. AND SHOEEEEEES. help me help me help me
AND EVEN MY DAD COULDN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T BUY ANYTHING THIS TRIP I MADE TO MALAYSIA
well the only thing i spent on is RM1 to a poor beggar with no arms no legs :))) shit i should have given him like RM10 or something. i'm a bad person :((((
got this post is such a rant post.
what the hell.
bye.
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